Tuesday, July 10, 2007

wah octeo is boiling mad to the point of smashing this comp and the printer and the scanner and the entire house down >:[

you think people are so free to actually do ten, i mean come on people are so busy already and almost going to burst open like some pea pod already and you have to come and add some more pressure. maybe its a misunderstanding (i think it really is) but why do i always have to open my mouth and say the wrong things and you have to open your mouth and say those really mean things really really get people down and everything. but then again those mean things are very true, very very very true, but sometimes you really get the wrong idea and i get the wrong idea too and things just go crashing down. but then i still really enjoy talking to you coz there's no one else quite like you and seriously i hope you can understand coz i am trying to understand now as i type furiously and think of bio spa and all the millions of other things fast approaching. i really really want it to be good, not sub-standard and rushed and crappy but really good, so i guess i'm kind of fussy and stuff and sometimes we both don't seem to get what we're both thinking.
and i'm really scared coz when you get pissed you're pissed for a long time and it really depends, sometimes it's hard to come back and sometimes it's not, but whatever the case I really really want you to know (though you won't see this) that i am doing this because i really want it good and it has to be good coz it will mean alot to many people and myself and you included. it's less than a month- in fact three more weeks before the big day. and i'm really taking your advice even though you think i'm not coz i believe in you. yeah. i'm sorry.
what have i done what have i done what have i done what have i done
please smash and squash my brains up now and frame the remnants up on the wall.
it's selfishness on my part, impatience on your part and misunderstanding on our part.
we will NOT fall apart. never.



yeahh sorry for the unusual weird rantings, and um people taking bio spa (especially the dear 301ers), all the best! surviving july and august sure won't be easy but oh well, i'll just go for it. :)

and it really means alot to us.