Wednesday, January 18, 2006
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To all RSSians (and ex RSSians or anyone who has been taught by my mother), I would gladly appreciate if you do not pass around the information in this post. Especially the guzheng people. Thank u! (:
i just realised.
i haven't blogged for a while. :)
There's lots of homework pouring in and I'm getting crushed by the heavy workload (they DO give you more homework in MEP than aesthetics. pooh.)
yesterday mom came home with bad news. it was actually good and bad, but i didn't exactly respond in a happy, joyous manner when she announced it to us over dinner.
mom had just returned frm her appointment at tan tock seng hospital. Since early last year mom's been having this terrible problem called the Trigger Finger. It all started when mom woke up one morning and complained that she couldn't uncurl her fingers and her fingers hurt very badly when she tried to straighten them. I can't describe to you how acute the pain is, it's too horrible to see her wincing almost everyday. Mom's ageing and she knows it, and besides, many of her colleauges and friends who are older than her have the same problem, only that there's no pain in the fingers at all. That's when we realised that there was something very unpleasant going on.
Mom couldn't hold on to water bottles or pens properly with her right hand because of the problem, and of course she couldnt carry heavy plastic bags anymore, but she still went on doing her grocery shopping and she had to carry her heavy bags which were stuffed with HEAVY SCHOOL BOOKS when she went to school to teach and it's really horrible to see her coming home with curled-up fingers again. Most of the time I know she's in pain but she just doesn't let dad and I know.
So last night mom announced that she was going to have a day surgery for her hand on 6 February, WHICH IS TWO DAYS AFTER LULU'S BDAE. I'm pretty worried for mom, although she and dad keep assuring me that they've gone through their fair share of day surgeries. Mom says that she won't be unconscious during the operation, but she'll be put on a painkiller while the doctor slices open her hand. The doctor's going to do something to fix the tendons in mom's right hand, since there's something wrong with the tendons and the nerves are badly twisted.
ohman i'm so worried about mom... what if the surgery isn't successful or something? The surgery's on a Monday, and I don't care if I have third lang or CCA, i'm going straight home to look after her after the surgery. Mom says she'll probably take medical leave for about a week or so until the pain is completely gone, and then she'll go back to teach because she's worried about her students' exams. so thoughtful lor. nevermind lah i trust that God will keep her safe during the operation and she will be just fine.
i just realised.
it's just so difficult to cope with ageing pains.